I haven't had much time to blog lately and everyone has been asking me for updates so I thought I'd quickly try and write what's been going on. Friday morning my Mom drove me to see Gage and Grant and Gavin stayed home trying to fix things around the house. I was sooo excited when they told me I could Finally hold my boy for the first time at 5 days old!
I didn't want to put him back...I could've fallen asleep with him so comfy in my arms. I Love this little guy soooo much and it's so hard to just visit him everyday and not being able to bring him home or hold him whenever I want to. Now that I know this is my last baby I will never put him down when he comes home.
Daddy was super excited Saturday morning because it was his turn to hold Gage! He even shaved his chest so he could do skin to skin. Gage was so comfy in Daddy's arms and he was awake and staring at us for 40 minutes before falling fast asleep on Daddy's chest.
Looking at Mommy for my picture :) We were so happy that he was awake and super active...when I was holding him he kept raising his head, he's really strong for such a tiny guy!
Gavin wants to hold him sooo bad...He was very excited to see Brother out of his condo
The Three Loves of My Life...My Boys
Gage was so relaxed on Daddy that he made a dirty diaper for Mama to change
Notice his 6 pack...the CPAP pushes air into his tummy so everytime he eats they have to suck air out of his stomach before feeding him so he gets these little bumps on his belly. Gage is on room air but needs the CPAP to help him breathe...the Respitory Therapist said he's doing most of the breathing on his own so their job is easy :)
Holding Baby Brother's Hand
I just Love these little feet...he loved to kick in my tummy and he loves to kick now. Gage likes you to push on his foot so he can kick you back and the Nurses all say how feisty he is and if they put blankets on him he kicks them off...just like his Big Brother!
I feel bad his poor feet have been poked so much for blood tests but aren't they adorable
Sunday Grant wasn't feeling well so Marsha brought us to visit Gage and I was so disappointed to find him back under the light for Jaundice. We knew this meant we wouldn't be able to hold him again for a few days :(
Cindy and Kyle came to meet Gage on Monday!!! Cindy thinks he looks like Gavin and he kept making funny faces and getting mad at me for trying to get the little fuzzies from bandages off his skin. Of course Mom wants him clean : )
I Love the fact that in this situation we find ourselves in again that I didn't think would happen and I wouldn't wish on anyone it helps me that Gage has the same Doctor's as Gavin. Today he had the same Nurse and she was so excited to see Gavin all grown up...she was amazed. The Doctor always jokes with me that he doesn't want to create sibling rivalry so Gage will be there the exact amount of days that Gavin was...not a day more or less. I keep telling him that Gage needs to come home sooner than Gavin's 48 days. He also jokes that I planned my pregnancy and NICU stay around RSV season (not true) and I keep asking for a repeat customer discount since I just finished paying him off LOL I feel comfortable here and it makes it so much easier to go through this again.
Gage is on 1.5 cc hourly Continuous feeds at the moment...they seem to move him up .5cc's a day. Hopefully he will be on full feeds soon. They do a routine brain ultrasound to check for brain bleeds, a common preemie problem at a week old...because of the holiday weekend they will be doing it tonight or tomorrow. The Doctor's and Nurses all think there is no problem and think it will come back negative but it's routine to check so I'm praying it comes back good. The jaundice light was off today and he was at 3 for the billi count and it's supposed to be between 4-6 so they will check again in the morning to see if he needs to go back under the tanning bed light. Hopefully I get to hold him tomorrow...it's so hard to just stare and him and hold his hand when I just want to hold him so badly. I owe alot of people phone calls and Thank You notes...My Neighbor gave us a double stroller (the same one you have Gwenett) that was so nice of her...she has twins now so she can no longer use it. If I don't answer the phone I'm in the NICU or Pumping (every 2.5-3 hours) or sleeping because I'm still in pain and waking up to pump so I'm exhausted and I will try to return calls and emails soon, we're still trying to get into a routine and hopefully I can drive next week so I can be more independent. Keep praying the little guy gets stronger and starts eating more to put on some weight (he weighs 2lbs 6ozs now) so he can come home soon...I miss him so much when I'm not with him and it's so hard to stay for long periods of time with a 3 year old. Gavin has been amazing and is so good at the hospital...I'm so proud of him. Grandma and I took him to see Kung Fu Panda today and he Loved it. I'm trying to give him so special attention now because when Gage comes home it will be harder to have one on one time.